This past month and a half has been difficult for my sweet girl...which has now worked its way to taking its toll on me. Oh how I wish I was so strong all the time...but I am weak and fall short often. I stay strong in front of my daughter to ease her worry and fear. Inside I am a mess some days. I have learned worrying gets me nowhere, so I cast my worries, fears, and everything else to The Lord.
I know I have said before but, I am not a person who shares my emotions often, but believe me I have more than I know what to do with. I pray and pray a lot. I speak to The Lord in the car, in the shower, when I lay in bed at night, always. I pray and pray all the time. Sometimes when I know I am alone, knowing I won't be "caught", I sit and cry. No word spoken to anyone just my pleads to The Lord through my tears. Lately it has been my release from being strong 24/7 for Cora.
Then last night I decided to get on Pinterst and as I scrolled down just a touch I found the below scripture from Psalm 56:8. It did so much for me. I could feel God speaking to me, answering not just my spoken prays, but my tear prayers as well. I picked up my Bible and turned to Psalm 56:8 and began reading. I felt The Lord hugging me, letting me know that he will be with Cora and care for her.
Now I can't say there aren't moments when I look at her, that I don't feel hopeless....Knowing I am unable to take away her chronic pain, her palpations, her breathing hardships, or any other health obstacles she is facing. But I know with my constant prayers and appreciation for the Glory of The Lord..."I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." Philippians 4:13.
Blessings until next time.
Drena
